// This is a weird looking number! We really want our first request size to be 1MiB,
// which is a common IO size. But Linux's readahead will try to read an extra 128k on on
// top of a 1MiB read, which we'd have to wait for a second request to service. Because
// FUSE doesn't know the difference between regular reads and readahead reads, it will
// send us a READ request for that 128k, so we'll have to block waiting for it even if
// the application doesn't want it. This is all in the noise for sequential IO, but
// waiting for the readahead hurts random IO. So we add 128k to the first request size
// to avoid the latency hit of the second request.
//
// Note the CRT does not respect this value right now, they always return chunks of part size
// but this is the first window size we prefer.
const INITIAL_READ_WINDOW_SIZE: usize = 1024 * 1024 + 128 * 1024;

github.com/awslabs/mountpoint-s3/mountpoint-s3-fs/src/s3/config.rs:243-254

by (what feels to me) some huge coincidence, i find myself increasingly actually believing myself to be more “awake” or aware or something than nearly everyone around me — and not in a way that feels obviously generically megalomaniacal or whatever, but in specific, measurable ways. i’m 100% clear that i’m not delusional in the ways i’m finding myself having a by-the-numbers relatively extraordinary belief.

and that would be just the expected ~phenomenology~ of such a delusion, and this too has never failed to occur to me. it just is what it is, and ngl that’s kinda weird.

this post brought to you from subconscious-overthinking while thoroughly learning k8s in my own time, becoming accustomed to feeling mostly disappointment in work time, and a fair bit of meditation in between

Estonians are renowned for their social charm, and for good reason are considered second to none in business. Here follows an exemplar of such, when an order from a motorcycle gear and accessory store was unable to be realised in full.

Hello! Thank you for your order. Oxford Aqua T-50 Roll Bag - Grey/White is unfortunately not available. Best regards

I was a little unsure of how to proceed, but figured I could try asking for a different similar item. They all appeared to be in stock on the website.

Hello! Thank you for your email. Do you have this one instead? All the best

They did not refund the difference between the original item and the one I requested, but given the level and speed of service I received in lieu, I didn’t even feel like asking for it!

it is so simultaneously disembodying and hyperembodying to be in pain

wip: WYSIWYG editor (just added the little language editor bit to code blocks) which is entirely CommonMark-driven! Behold:

iex(7)> Kv.Content.get_item!(139).body_md |> IO.puts
[debug] QUERY OK source="items" db=0.9ms idle=335.6ms
SELECT i0."id", i0."kind", i0."path", i0."title", i0."metadata", i0."published_at",
i0."published_at_slug", i0."tags", i0."body_md", i0."inserted_at", i0."updated_at",
i0."author_id" FROM "items" AS i0 WHERE (i0."id" = $1) [139]
↳ :elixir.eval_external_handler/3, at: src/elixir.erl:386

* echawwo mi kin, **hereeee**
  * yesssss
  *

```rust
func main() -> Result<(), Box<dyn Error>> {
  // nyonk!
}
```

yeehaw

```plaintext
o//
```
:ok

Follow-up to cosas pequeñas:

• The little blog engine slowly grows more capable. It’s been nice.
• Decided to turn that homelab server into a gaming PC instead, haha psyche! Instead decided to learn better how to cross-build things and operate k3s without trying to shove everything through a NixOS module.
• Ketamine infusion probably happening around August.
• Clonidine effectiveness wore off, increased dose, wore off, increased dose, wore off. Just saw my psychiatrist again and he, like every other specialist, is “drawing a blank”. Going to keep increasing the dose of that/try not to fall over/try not to run out and get hit with rebound hypertension, consult again in 4 weeks. Not feeling super good about this but wcyd
• Autumn has been lovely, hello winter!

Rest in peace, Charlotte.

Entire body aching. Shoulders, elbows (both strong), wrists, fingers joints, back of hand (right esp), knees, upper and lower legs top, back; feet all over. I will run this body into the ground if I have to, not out of malice, but out of love for my own existence, our own, its own existence and refusing to let this sap my quality of life. It is clearly not responsive to either rest and taking it easy, or staying moving and stretching and being active. It is caused by neither, helped by neither. I will rest as much as I like, but then I will work and push as hard as I want. Stimulants and cannabis help me do both, and it will rely on them to help with both. To do otherwise is to waste the gift of opportunity it has.

It is on a mission.