Imported 48 blog posts from 2010–2012 by trawling archive.org. How did 2010 Wordpress have better syntax highlighting than any blog I’ve seen today? Must remedy.
I saw so many different designs I’ve used over the years, but this one has to be my favourite:
I go through about three of these a week. Right now I’m telling myself that I’ve done everything I possibly can to get it recognised/understood/diagnosed, and that so far all anyone can say is “idk, fibro maybe?” means there is nothing more to be gained by worrying about it or trying to understand it, no more to be gained by reacting to today’s new form of it, or tomorrow’s, and that the only meaning I really can make of this is that I am to be someone who deals with this, to demonstrate what it means to live in acceptance and all that.
(daily meditation this year has been pretty life-saving, incidentally.)
And then if something does go wrong, well, that sucks, but doesn’t make this choice any less correct with the information I have now.
I love coding so much. I don’t mean software, I mean just writing code and talking to the machine. […] Now most code I write is just tokens. Tens of thousands of tokens per day, empty. I skim through them to decide if they will work or not, accept or reject them. Again, and again… I have no empathy or emotion towards them, I feel nothing, I have become the computer that evaluates them. From machinist to machine. I can feel it. I can feel how it is taking me away from the path of understanding. Every day, little by little. You must have noticed it too.
Indeed, I have.
Of all bugs to have, I’m currently nursing a timezone-related error in my blog engine, and so everything’s appearing 10 hours ahead of time. Or maybe I just really am ahead of my time?
edit: add “(UTC)” to the field so i remember. fixed.
I haven’t done one of these kinds of things since I had a LiveJournal. Here goes.
Not to my knowledge.
Generally sweet.
Ehhhh, I don’t know. I am not much one for nostalgia, or forming memories that last more than a few years. I’m racking my brain but I just don’t. If LLM nonsense continues to infiltrate then I’ll have plenty to say?
11, all of them, none of them.
Filesystem 512-blocks Used Available Capacity iused ifree %iused Mounted on
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/dev/disk3s5 7805330720 3818537728 3229630184 55% 6905631 16148150920 0% /System/Volumes/DataAbout 15 years ago I made my entire personality “if I try something and I don’t like it, I will try harder” when my job entailed interop with SharePoint. So far so good, I think.
I’m playing a lot with VZ right now (literally right now) and it’s pretty nice. More broadly, though, I have to hand it to QEMU. It is so complete. It is so complete. User-space emulation is particularly magic. It’s also the only one I have commits in (afaik).
Seeds of doubt.
I couldn’t possibly name one. Also, what counts as instrumental? Here are two I’m especially fond of.
The lioness does not concern herself with justifications.
Not been in touch in many years — lost in the friendship group rift after a breakup — but we were once close, and would stretch time and plans to see each other when we’d be on the same continent.
In the imaginal, we were both at some kind of chill gathering, a quiet house party, and it was wrapping up. It’d be the last time I’d see them before they were due to fly out, and we had a corner of the room to ourselves.
I remember gently resting my head against their chest, and then — looking into each other’s eyes — very tenderly and gently sharing affirmations of our mutual love.
Missed you.
no highly esteemed deed is commemorated here… nothing valued is here. What is here was dangerous and repulsive to us.
A few weeks (months?) ago I thought it’d be neat to have a little pop-up window visualising the output of jj, so I could look at the changelog graph change in real-time as I did commands, rather than checking Tl (jj log) repeatedly.
En route, I really wanted to know what song was playing on my Inkplate, so I hastily threw together suena and a script for calling it over the network.
As I started learning how to use jj-lib, I decided it was finally time I would not just push it to GitHub, but make my own. nóssa is very much a work-in-progress, but it’s functional (and backed up) enough that I can just keep everything there now. Along the way I learned to produce commit graphs the same way jj does, and get used to git2-rs, which has been neat.
While pushing LiveViews a little too hard, I found I needed another Elixir/Phoenix project to work on, since nóssa’s a first-of-the-kind for me and I needed to learn faster and spread the mistakes out a little. Redoing my blog seemed like a good opportunity. I’ve been putting off posting more until I finally got asset management done, but then I was finding the compile/Nix-realisation-time on my VPS prohibitive, so now I have a really big homelab server (mothdust!) for the first time in forever.
Now I’m thinking I’ll want a caching reverse proxy that sits on a very small VPS, so that if mothdust goes down, GET requests can still work. And maybe I can make it do the upstream requests over the Erlang network instead of just being a dumb client. Among other things, this avoids having to bypass Anubis or similar things another way, and could also e.g. fetch a list of known pages to “pre-render” the site into cache, purge the cache automatically on code updates and content edits, etc.? I’m particularly trying to have fun with my website, because why not? It’s a part of me.
my dreams press in on me
acumulando
un till i more often reminisce of them than of this
they bubble to the top, and over
Annie: “Kas sa tead [unintelligible]?”
Talya: “Kas ma tean.. mida?”
Annie: “Prawn?”
Talya: “Kas ma tean… prawn?”
Annie: nods
Talya: “Tean küll. Oled sina.”
we’re in CGNAT territory out here :/ ↩
