Words fail to capture how delighted I was to receive a letter today.

Thank you <3 x

Someone who wants to take me out of sheer lust.

Well.

It turns out being constantly stimmed on my back makes me a catty bitch liable to meltdown frequently. This morning things got too much and I started being unreasonable at N, and yet managed to keep enough presence of mind to tell her that her taking control of the situation could remedy things quickly.

One of the objects of my unreasonableness was the kettle (and its not being filled up), and, in view of my having just filled it up — it’s like a 3 or 4 litre urn-type deal — she ordered me to go into the kitchen and watch it until it boiled.

The kettle has the decency to show the current temperature of its contents and a minute-granularity estimate of how long it’ll take until it’s boiled. Seeing that “14” on the display as I entered the room really added something to the experience.

It did the trick more perfectly than I could’ve anticipated.

Body’s in struggletown.

Feels like I’m in full-on repair mode. Upper back still feels white hot; N’s focus there was perhaps overenthusiastic. The constant stim has also made me feel a bit less people-capable than usual, at least irl. Tired!

My head is still swimming in endorphins, an hour later.

It was three full hours non-stop, and then a short lull, and then half an hour more. I am more thoroughly rekt than I’ve been in.. years.

And glowing.

C exceeded my expectations — the stamina of that girl! — and I think it definitely drew N out as well. The actual domination aspects were light but still felt; a few times each they pulled me up on address or responsiveness and it was quite delightful. C has a very cute face yet pulls off “hot and in control” almost effortlessly.

It was also just so good to be one of three girls in a bed together again. This was N’s and my first time doing something together with another, too. As expected, no problems there. I think our comfort with each other and in the relationships we hold with each other is at an all-time high. I could just relax into the pain, the submission, the sometimes-brutality of it.